You know ... I have missed Iran all these years ... being in Tehran in the fall ... or going to "Shirpala" in winter ... and for years I lived dreaming of that very day when I could go back and say: "I am here to stay"
But ... what I miss the most here is that sense of "unconditional love" ... that raw crazed masochist mindless love ... what you can not find it here ...
... I could not find it here.

And so many many conditions which gives others satisfaction or guaranty ...
... its like an exam I am born to fail ... for that I am not made.

I miss being with you. always.